Hello, are you awake? The artistic mind.

Because blogging and writing is my income, I have to get my hours in as with any normal job.

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And sometimes with my bipolar my sleeping habits are unpredictable. So to make sure that I get the normal amount of sleeping hours and working hours in, I sometimes treat my nights as days.

The first thing I eat in the morning would be breakfast. So, why not breakfast at night?
MY NIGHT TIME BREAKFAST

Yip, my favorite night time breakfast has become egg benedict (bacon cupped around egg) with bread and topped with olives and tomato. Here’s tonight meal. (Btw this is an unplanned post, but I just thought perhaps someone can relate to it)

For the green smoothie I just used what was in the fridge, and added some whole strawberries and raspberries on top.

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My sleeping routine started of like this:

I will not be able to sleep at night and fall asleep at 6am. Then I will sleep the entire day, and at night I cannot sleep. The cycle continues.

At first I would feel awful about not being able to sleep at night. Like it’s this big sin, like I’m not normal (says the one with bipolar)

If you tell any given person you are not able to sleep at night, the normal response would be, ‘You should take sleeping pills, you should see a doctor, you should drink Chamomile¬†tea before you go sleep, no cellphone before bed time, create a playlist with sleeping music etc’

Yes, I’ve tried all of that.

However, I know many people would stress out if they cannot sleep at night because in the morning they have to go to work.

I’m lucky in that regard that I make my money by writing and blogging. That means I have to monitor myself and see my behavior and sleeping patterns.

If I see I sleep through the night and wake up in the morning, I normally start with writing from 7:30am-17:00pm.

But if I sleep during the day because I didn’t have a good night’s sleep, I wake up at 16:00pm.

Then I clean the house, make food, take a shower and my husband comes from work.

I spent the entire evening with him, go to the park, do naughty fun grown up things ūüėČ ¬†until we go sleep… and I’m still wide awake.

In the first months of our marriage he was worried that I’m not sleeping but now he is used to it.

I’ve found that many other creative minds also work at night. Do you?

Besides, I know it’s daytime somewhere else in the world right now.

Happy living,

Chantal xx

 

 

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Should you give up blogging?(The truth)

My friend, who is also a blogger asked me this question. Should he give up blogging after 6 years?

I asked him why: ‘Well, I’ve been blogging and making videos for 6 years and I only have 107 followers on WordPress and 5 followers on YouTube.’

We established that he wanted to turn his hobby into a future financial income, but failed.

He went on to explain that he has left his job 6 years ago to start the blogging and YouTube journey. He used his money to invest in a good camera and equipment. His blog was going to be a blog about bicycles, reviews , videos etc.

Now, he was sitting in front of me ready to give up.

He has tried all the advise people had given him, he watched all the YouTube advise videos and so forth.

I know many of you probably think that ‘He should not have left his job‘ but well he did.

I know these Youtbe videos very well. I’ve watched them myself at a time when I was ready to give up Youtube and blogging.

The advise goes as follows:
Create good content, choose a specific audience, work hard and be patient.

But for 6years my friend did this, and nothing really happened. I tried it and nothing happened for me too, until I found what actually works.

*Wait let me turn on my camera because my thoughts are coming too fast. *

 

 

 

How to deal with depression in a busy life

As someone with bipolar, I know depression well. I started trying different things four years ago, and these seem to help me. I hope it helps you. I tried to keep it short and to the point. I know life is busy! ūüôā

  • Do not forget to eat, even if you do not have appetite. Depression makes some people loose their appetite and causes others to over eat.
  • Do some exercise.
  • Prevent staying in bed even though it is tempting
  • Your brain is wired to think negatively, change your focus onto something more positive
  • Drink water
  • Make sure you take rest. Don’t over work.
  • Take periods of time just to rest and don’t feel guilty about it.
  • Take your medication as prescribed
  • Don’t stop taking your medication when you start to feel better.

    Depression influence everyone differently, use these tips as guidelines because you know yourself better than anyone.

  • Your problem has been solved. You just haven't arrived in that point in time yet.

Why I prefer normal bloggers above popular bloggers/vloggers

Do you prefer celebrities/ popular bloggers or the ‘ordinary’ woman/man?

It’s okay if you prefer the popular youtube people or famous bloggers over the ‘normal’ folks like us. They have great quality pictures, they always look good and well, you’ve maybe watched them for years.

I also have my favorites. I use to watch famous youtubers ¬†and read Elle magazine’s blog like a prayer in the morning.

But little by little I’ve lost interest in them. I asked myself why?

For one, many of them have become corrupt. Elle magazine has always been a business, but youtube and blogging for the normal folks has not. In recent years it has.

It seems like lately many people are influenced by money to the point of lying to their viewers about how products work, because they get paid to promote a product.

I’m all for bloggers/vloggers making money, because a ton of work goes into blogging. We create content and so we deserve to be paid for it, just like any other job.

But it has gotten out of hand. The amount of products that I’ve used because a vlogger/blogger has praised it is embarrassing. Then it turns out that it is junk.

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So, this is why I prefer the normal blogger community:

I can relate to their lifestyles¬†more: I believe in the law of attraction in my own way. What you behold you become. But in the same breathe I want to say, sometimes the products the famous bloggers/vloggers use is so expensive. And I need that shampoo or whatever right now, not later. Also it becomes depressing when you see what ‘apparently’ everyone else have and you don’t. But we are all mature to realize to not compare yourself with other people, right? ¬†Because you don’t know what they did to get those things (sacrifices, hard work, or maybe even maxed out credit cards) And besides, you are doing your best, I’m doing my best, we are all doing our best.

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Source: I used the lion image from veganstrongwarrior but I designed the rest.

They come right out and say what really works because they have nothing to loose. I know almost all bloggers have a passion for what they are doing, but sometimes you can see when they have lost that passion. or perhaps don’t have as much free time as they did when they where just regular folks.

Either way, you never seem to get the real truth anymore. For example I was watching this girl doing a curly hair tutorial. Throughout the tutorial she promotes products. But she never showed the real process of the hair. She skips the entire part of how she dries her hair (natural or diffuser?) Everyone can see that she used a curling iron to perfect the curls, but she insist it’s natural and that it’s the products that did it.

With all that being said, if I was in their shoes, would I do the same? Would you?

 

 

 

 

Are fashion bloggers shallow?

A friend of mine inbox me this morning to borrow some money. I noticed that it was the second one in this week asking me for money. This is unusual for me. Not because all my friends are super rich, just that I don’t have any real friends apart from two people (Not the people who asked for money)

That being said, I have no objection to helping people out, as I myself have been many times in a place of needing. And kind souls have helped me out.

So, why this post about whether or not fashion bloggers are shallow?

Well when I explained to the person that I cannot help her at the moment, because the sum was huge, she told me ‘Yeah, you living the life. I see your pictures on Facebook. Every week a new outfit but now you don’t have money for me. All you care about is clothes, you are so shallow’

I recognized the emotional manipulation. However, the answer didn’t upset me much, just the idea that fashion bloggers can sometimes come off as shallow and all we care about is shoes, clothes and the shade of red lipstick we wear on our lips.

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With any blog, you choose a theme for your blog. Lifestyle, writing, spiritual fashion, a little of everything’ then predominately that blog will be about those things.

If someone has a Spiritual blog, no one says ‘You are so shallow’. ¬†They think this person is super spiritual (however I believe all beings are spiritual, we just live in our physical bodies now)¬†

But in their daily lives they might like fashion, cars or gourmet food. They just happen to have a blog specifically about spirituality.

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Source: I made this but used the image of DG

So, fashion bloggers, just like any other bloggers, blog about what they are passionate about.

I follow everyone that follows me, and I look through the blog posts daily and I smile. Fashion bloggers gives me what’s new in the fashion world, inspire my personal style and give bad ass reviews about things I care about.

The other blogs I follow give me insight into food, writing, beauty, mental health, poems, love,life,adventures, farms and a whole lot more. I read widely, and it is lovely to see all the creativity and thoughts. It inspires me.

I don’t think fashion bloggers are shallow. I don’t think I’m shallow.

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Source: Lupytha Hermin

 

 

 

What my husband does right and my exes did wrong.

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I have taught many men have loved me. But as I lay here tonight, I realized that ¬†is not the case. I’ve not been loved until my husband came along.

These are things I’ve realized about my previous relationships.

Being loved is not ‘liking’ my pictures. It’s not making my face your profile picture. And I have to be so proud because it means you are not cheating. It’s not tagging me in all the pictures and saying ‘she’s mine‘.

Love is not possessive. Unsure. Or social media.

It’s finding genuine beauty in my soul and appearance when I’m down and out. When the blow dry has been out for days. When I need a hot-water bottle for my stomach at 3am. When you know I take 2 sugars in my coffee but I don’t really drink coffee. I change my mind and you change what we have in the fridge. ‘No coffee today, no tea today, so maybe I should get juice’ he says and smiles.

But I also love him. And that gives me the opportunity to bend myself around him. Bend my ways, in love. With bending comes breaking. Like breaking my bad habits. I want to say it’s difficult because everyone says it is, but it’s so easy. Destroying my bad habits became so easy.

It becomes easy when you know that not only you, but another being also, is doing their best to build a great present and future. Building a respectful, loyal loving space to live.

Now here comes the part where people say (and have said: ‘Oh just wait for the bad times and we’ll speak again.’

I don’t wait for bad times, because if you wait for something it will come. And we have had a fair share of ‘bad times’. But even in those moments I realize this is the man I love and he is alive, with me. Breathing. Whatever pisses me the fuck off right now, is not worth it.

So we ‘fight’ (Relatively short because I’m a Virgo. I’m ¬†a problem solver )We sit in silence. After a while he suggest or I suggest getting a glass of wine or juice or water. We think. And focus on what’s important. What’s the problem, what can we do about it?, what can’t we do about it? Somewhere in there I get snacks and he gets a notepad for our plans of action.

And you move on to the next day and the next and the next.

No, we don’t have all our shit together, but love is a beautiful thing to witness.

 

 

 

 

Self love & depression

When I think about loving ¬†and accepting myself I think about vanity. Like ‘Okay, I love my body, I love my face, I love my hair’ or whatever I might not be liking and then conditioning myself to like that particular part.

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With a world full of Photoshop and filters, self love has become even more sought after. And it makes sense. You see all of these images of unattainable beauty and you feel inadequate about your own.

There’s a quote that says ‘The presence of another human’s beauty is not the absence of your own.’ (…Or something like that)

I like it, but do we as a society truly believe it?

Today’s post is not about outer acceptance, even though that is also important. I’ve made the journey to accepting most of myself and I’m quite comfortable. Here and there I still struggle with my body, but it gets better.

However, I had this thought that loving myself is much more than standing in front of a mirror, trying to find myself in the face that stares back at me.

The idea of loving yourself has been very dear to me. And so today’s blog post is inspired by Court‘s video. You can check it out here.

In the video she mentions 5 signs that you don’t love yourself. I was stuck on nr3.

Basically she explains how loving yourself is also eating well, drinking enough water and sleeping.

And then I knew I had to write this post, to get it of my chest and to share with you. Because that’s what I do best.

I’ll be speaking more on the side of depression as I’m a person with bipolar and depression is no stranger to me. I hope this helps someone.

Here we go!

I’ve come to understand that loving yourself is taking care of hygiene.

This is something not everyone speaks about, but if you’d ever had depression, then you know hygiene is one of the first things to go.

Take a shower everyday and if not everyday, then every day. it’s difficult I know. Some people reading this might even think ‘Eew disgusting!’ But I’m not writing this for those people. I’m writing this for you. I know what it feels like.

But also I know what warm water over my body feels like. It’s like a hug from nature to you. Massage your neck with the water. wash your hair. massage your scalp. Put clean clothes on. Change your bedding.

Loving yourself is also eating well…Or sometimes just eating. Even if it’s Mc Donalds, at least getting that food in your mouth and giving your stomach cardboard to chew on mimics the feeling of being fed. Not the healthiest choice, but hey.

But to actually love yourself, feeding your body the proper food it needs will make you feel better. But you know that already. People with depression know that probably better than most people. The problem however is to get out of bed, go to the stores and get the food. Then come home and cook it. Day after day, breakfast, snacks, dinner etc. Sometimes you don’t have money for healthy food or the stove don’t work or your life don’t work or you don’t work.

And so fast food seems like an option. I know the feeling. But try. And tomorrow is another day.

Loving yourself is drinking enough water. Enough said.

Loving yourself is exercising. Such an easy sentence to write, so difficult to do when one is depressed. Here I am trying to loose the Mc Donald’s pounds I’ve been gaining. It was raining and my Marcel and myself was in bed, nicely tucked away. But I got out of bed and died a thousand times while running. This is the part where I say that it made me feel better. It really didn’t. Running makes me feel awful. But knowing that I ran makes me feel good. And after a while, I feel the health benefits.

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I think as primitive humans we didn’t have cars, we had donkeys etc. We moved around more. Now we have all the luxury as a necessity of some sort. That’s what causes the problems. Back then people worked on farms, walked for miles and was more active then the average person today. They had fresh food, real food. Period.

But they also died of things we today can easily avoid because of the advanced medical field . (However, I think sometimes it would be wise to use more herbs etc in our medication, but that’s just me)

And finally, loving yourself is mediating. Or becoming still. It gives your mind the chance to reset and disconnect with the world. Which is necessary , the world is overwhelming at times.

Facebook, IG, twitter, snapchat etc is great, but leaving it for one hour or even 15min to focus on yourself is needed. You won’t miss much anyway. You can always go back and everything will still be on social media. Like this blog post, like your aunt who posted a picture of her new baby, like that cute boy who sent you an inbox.

First love yourself, take care of your mind then go back into the world and little by little sunshine will appear.

It’s the little things in life that makes big differences.